Angie is under construction

OK so basically, I have realized that I am a very pessimistic person. I never seem to be happy with anything. There is ALWAYS a down side to EVERYTHING-mentality.

So I have realized it ..i am not in denial anymore. All the countless times Doug has said "Babe, you are hard to please because you dont see the good in anything." I am seeing this is true..he was right???? Whoa! Hope he doesn't read this blog :)

So, now, my challenge is to change that attitude because I really do have an awesome life. Sure, there are things that drive me nuts, and there are times when i want to lock myself in the bathroom and scream as loud as I can. But I think all wives-mothers-humans can relate to that. And I think its ok to feel that way and get frustrated sometimes. But its not healthy ALL the time which is what I am learning. I come from a family of anxiety-ridden Italians so I think I inherited the anxiety trait :(

I have an amazing husband who has always been there for me and helps me with anything I ask. He loves me and I know he does and that is something to be grateful for!! He's been by my side since we were 13 and to this day is my best friend. I have 3 amazingly bright, talented, gorgeous little girls who are really well-behaved and polite, loving kids. They have their moments as any child does but all-in-all I am lucky. They are healthy, well-adjusted, God-fearing children and I love them with all that I am as a mother.

The point of this blog (seeing as its almost Thanksgiving and all) is to remind myself that even though money can be tight at times, and stress-levels can be high, and my anxiety WILL flare up occasionally, I am truly blessed with all that God has given me. I need to let go and let God take control. I can't do everything on my own. I can't control other people. I can only control MY actions and words. So pray that I can follow through with this endeavor of challenging myself to be better. To love those who love me. To give when others need. To speak gentle, kind words. To hug my kids at the end of the day even after they torture me. To tell Doug I love him every night and thank him for the love he gives me even when I don't deserve it.